A few days ago, earlier in the week, I came home from work and I felt an inward part of myself completely shutting down. My husband was talking to me but I wasn't hearing anything. I didn't want to cook dinner. I didn't want to fold laundry. I didn't want to make sure the dogs… Continue reading Where We Go At Night

A few years ago when I first moved to Folsom and moved in with my mom, after I'd been working for a few months, my mom and I had planned a trip to see my sister in Oregon. I think it was supposed to be like a 5 day trip but in actuality it was… Continue reading Soon After

This week was my husband's birthday. It got me thinking how often times, I think we use a person's birthday to gratify ourselves. How can I show this person I love him, in a very exaggerated way, that's over the top, that will really impress upon him that this IS his birthday, in case he… Continue reading The Laws of Others

Here I sit trying to organize my day but already feeling unorganized inside. I'm trying to recall dreams I don't remember but am distracted by the mold in my windows. Ah, the problem of single pane windows. I kind of feel like Beverly in Stephen King's IT. Time and time again she washed the blood… Continue reading It’s Okay to Laugh

Since I moved into my own apartment with Justin, I feel like I'm constantly, consciously remembering all the tips my mom gave me growing up. Here's some stuff my mom's given me over the years, along with some of Toni (my m-in-law)'s stuff as well. 🙂 Don't leave the house without a sweater. Admittedly, I… Continue reading Things I Learned From Mom and My Valentine

I keep thinking of our neighbor and her dog. I always remember the dog's name, Jackie, because I hear it yelled so often. But I can never remember my neighbor's name. She's just a sweet old lady who always seems to have an unending amount of laundry to do, because I can see it piling… Continue reading In the Dark

Halloween came and went, and Justin and I didn't get any trick-or-treaters this year. I think this was our first Halloween at home, watching a Vincent Price movie, eating cookie dough. Justin fell asleep partially on my side, Ruby on my other side. I looked up fun facts about Mr. Price the closer the movie… Continue reading All the Things

It's a beautiful Fall day, and as I was taking the garbage out earlier I saw a smashed up birthday cake in the dumpster, bees buzzing around it. There were left over party bags, a storage container, a table. Is it weird how taking the garbage out reminds me just how many people live here,… Continue reading Birthday Cake

It hit me today that the Lord is my shield even when I am wrong. He is the prosecutor and the defense. I'm not always righteous, but even when I'm not, he never fails to defend me any way. Don't misunderstand me. I think that God always convicts us at our heart's core when we've made a… Continue reading The Lord Knows

I was never really a big fan of summer. It's hot. My thighs stick together. In times past I have a tendency to feel lonely, or bored, or without purpose. It's kind of a strange time of year, I mean, its like three months of whatever. When I was in school I never made big… Continue reading Summer